Anymore...

Though I tried

to know what's it like 

to, love you

trying and failing and failing and trying

to make you love me back

as patient as I could be, I waited...on

For you to love me too

and understand feelings mine
as the field where I stood
turned wild and that wild! into woods

time was upon me and unwilling
I could only...let you go

Giving up on your tempting shadow

desperately trying not to try no more...to hold on

I learnt, to give up, to outgrow

so, here I am living without you

knowing you knew, but didn't care

that once, I would have died for you
...

that once, I for once, truly loved you
now. it doesn't matter...anymore