Heart knows not...

Heart knows not, what it knows
first caress of love anew
with vortex of feelings that grow
till passions never say adieu

Heart knows not, what it knows
the need, the prickle, so painful
just even with a thought, it hurts, it hurts so
deep even after so long, deep it does, still

Heart knows not, what it knows
not even those feelings long buried inside
nor the beautiful truth hidden so long
in the surface, just before the eyes

Heart knows not, what it knows
it cannot not love, that stranger
that stranger, who snatched your very spirit, never to let go
then, now and forever. then now and forever

By that lonely...

They did the dying before they’re dead

Covered in rags, nailed to the coffin!

Forgotten slow but sure, as livings tears shed

Will they ever matter? In that lonely, on..going..on

In burial of the silence, that lonely

What values are sure? ..are right!

When in pale-yellow of decay regresses body (with death of the mind)

With finality from sweet-vain life, without opportune of a goodbye

Is worth be my ego? or anyone’s else!

As dark agony grips with unearthly leashes

the core every mortal believes in, that very ego! ever since..

Illusions as of whimsical desires ruled, the mind weak

Entangled…viselike

Away..
Towards that lonely..

By that lonely..
and dark silence
forever..

Anymore...

Though I tried

to know what's it like 

to, love you

trying and failing and failing and trying

to make you love me back

as patient as I could be, I waited...on

For you to love me too

and understand feelings mine
as the field where I stood
turned wild and that wild! into woods

time was upon me and unwilling
I could only...let you go

Giving up on your tempting shadow

desperately trying not to try no more...to hold on

I learnt, to give up, to outgrow

so, here I am living without you

knowing you knew, but didn't care

that once, I would have died for you
...

that once, I for once, truly loved you
now. it doesn't matter...anymore

All, I, want...

All, I, want to ask

Let, me, love you, unconditional

Through, thick and thin

In ways, that are simple

times; you weep, in sadness

times; you smile, with joy

Let’s share them always...
memories such, together.

now, and forever.

I want you.
Your sanity, your madness

And brave, all your world's wilderness
To find you, reach you, touch you, the real you

Let me hold you.

Let I; all…be yours.

As a messed-up, imperfect, man…yours

As one, who knows for who you are, and understands.

...

Let’s slumber watching the aged stars falling by the night

Let’s wake up feeling the warm sun with morning smiles

And spend days knowing you and I, for each other, are there, always...

And meet-up, to make love, by the cool night, with passion intimate such …only lovers know

Even after your beauty fades, including my strength ..together, old..let’s grow...

Let me love you, like no one has ever loved you

Like no one ever will…now…or…ever

This I solemnly swear…unto this breath, and the ocean blue

So…Love, come be my one true lover, let’s live together

So…Love, take this chance, hold my unsteady hand, and let go never!

So love…

All, I, want to ask

Let, me, love you, unconditional

Through, thick and thin

In ways, that are simple

times; you weep, in sadness

times; you smile, with joy

Let’s share always...
such, together.

now, and forever.

x

Easy or not so...

It's easy to say
I am in love
It's so, easy.
but if you asked
by how much
It's not so, easy

Love. I could compare,
to those stars, brightest in the night
or with that moon. the maiden most fair
and with all nature's elegance witnessed by their light
It's so, so easy

But is it so true...really
when those stars are too far away
or that moon beyond the dark, sad and lonely
with all their beauty ephemeral, always
Its not, so easy

So what is easy
in the surface that is
my dears, is it so, so easy

The summer love
warm yet lost early
or the winter sadness
cold yet long lasting
do tell...is love
so easy...or not so easy...do tell...
so easy...or not so easy...do tell...

All the way always..

There's beauty in the ordinary
and, grace in clumsy steps
when smile warms sad lonely eyes
with each stride believing in itself

There's enlightenment in the ignorant
and, memories ancient in new born
when one's search is for the true self
with instinct honed from whence inherent

There are truths in-between lies
and, power behind bright hungry eyes
when one perceives without judgement
with life lived, all the way, always
                  and, all the way, always

Don't...

Don't slumber in the activity
be alive in the idle blessing
where; but world just passes by
like it always will, so you be alive
lonely but strong, be that soul invincible
distant from those kind hearts break-ably fragile

Walk on...dream on the impossible
all the way go on...hanging on to the dear life
against all the odds, be them, small... big...
until your sun sets...give all with pride
even after your moon hides in the clouds
go on..despite the imposed judgments of the world
don't quit, learn to swim, and on the way, live, love and learn

As it should...

The just mind

Needs strong will

To resist

Temptations

And so

Deliver TRUE justice

The calm heart

Needs the sturdiest anchor

A belief

with TIMELESS patience

To love

Impartially

&

To let go

If needs be

The soul light

Needs true divine

To Understand

To accept

&

SURRENDER

Self

And all the entirety

To be

One

-

All you! guardian angels

If you are real

Come down

From the blissful heavens

To Gaia

Where mortals toil

In friendship

-

Let knowledge

Be free

To roam unrestrained

In thoughts

of minds

within and without all people

Of all lands

For all times

-

Then

Hell will be

Purified of agony

With healing light

 light of knowledge

And soul will not suffer

In agony

any more

as it did so far

Eternally

-

So

Love will

Find its forgotten way

As it should

reaching every heart

Broken

Heavy

Selfish

-

And joy

Will find

A home

As

The cycle

Breaks

In this life

Not another

With hope

Guiding

The blind

The ignorant

The fallen people

-

Then, there… will be

No gods

No demons

No mortals

No divine

No differences

Only Light

Only love

Only the unity

In infinity

Of conscious

As
 one

and

all

For all time

For all the realities

Amalgamated

As

One

So it will…

To be

Just be

2/7/2017

Tamla Aj

The power of words...

There are voices unheard but can't be silenced
And there are noises heard but can be
All differences lies..in the way of words
And What they mean to each
Gentle to some...as the eve's wind 
Angry to others...as of the tempest brief
Hark! Before judgement quick
 weight your words before you speak!! 

How would you...

How would you know, when you have never tried?

To transcend common into masterpiece, once in your life

How would you understand, when you have never dared?

To risk for dreams, give a chance, for them to come true

How would you make do, without inspiration commitment and patience?

To reaffirm yourself, your reality shaped from your epic imagination

How would you, without refusal to stagnant life of ease?            

Cultivate meaningful industry and truly so live

How would you, be successful, be the person you want to be?

Without a rudder in your life, a vison of your own, of what you will become

How would you? So, I ask. You! as I have been asking myself repeatedly

Who would gain so much? if you gave all to yourself, your heart, your mind, truly…

1.23.2017

Tamla Aj

Another Step

When the future man takes another step

Will it be to those stars above where he leaps?

upon the planet where life is speculated to exist

Like our own, own beautiful blue globe

There…Will he dare to restart anew?

Unlike us…understanding its every facet with care with love 

And being loved back in kind, in body and in mind

Oh! this sentient is enticed by such possibilities

To go beyond its domain and explore; wide and deep  

every surface, for the riches above, and below search and reach 

Sail to hearts content its rivulets, seas and oceans with life on brim
and fly above its clouds, feel the gentle push of the winds 

And live long as is due, never bored, never alone

True to self, leading such life with all petty interests just gone

Where every man, woman and child don’t need excuses

To have a space, private niche, for love, for understanding and for respect

Needing no colors, no religions, no races

Wanting no prejudices, no fears, no wall, no hatreds

Just man to man, woman to woman, and

Just living to living, feel all life is worth living for

And cause be enough, dying for if need be

If I was him, I will dare with all my spirit

Take that one chance, on such an adventure

Reawaken from the cold slumber, to again live
as a future man, be I may a fatuous creature

on a virgin world vibrant and pure, from the surface to the core

where the true magic of nature is never lost, so freely flows

Where heart beats content in love and mind thinks thoughts in leaps

Where everyone; men, women and  is equal, with no barriers in-between

From the eyes of their loving mother, she of the nature and of their own

To share the richness of sweat where no death toils, when no blood flows

Where truth is justice and when its word is the law

Where knowledge is sacred and when violence is history best forgotten

That dream, is my dream my own, that dream can he fulfill, the future man?

With his leap above those distant stars

upon the planet where life is speculated to exist

Like our own, own beautiful blue globe…

Salvation

Doomed. He could only watch

His world crumbling, his works undone

And he, himself falling apart

Losing all he had, his dreams,

his soul, his world, entire

Just gone, puff! like it never existed

In the very first place…

Then. she came,

embracing him as he was

gathering his broken parts

Giving life to the healthy

and healing the diseased

she remade him, for better

Again. a reason she became
to survive, live to find joy and be happy 

She; his one and only

truly and always
truly and always
...
Salvation

It awaits...

The letter you had sent

it still is in my pocket

unopened unread unwrinkled

above my heart it awaits

For i know
...this...

it's not the time

it's not the place

and its not for me

But 

for him, him
 my best-friend

...mine...

whom you love

as i have loved you

that friend who 

in the front-line

 for his motherland

for hundreds of his brethren

one as me
as I for him

is fighting

is struggling

is awaiting

for peace to come true

for love to win the petty hearts

like he had won yours

like you had won his
as you did mine

and still do

- 

Don't worry

he will get his letter

when he comes back

and when  my duty  starts

he will smile
with joy
with longling

i know
so will i

as I pat his back

till then...
till then,

 the letter you had sent

it still stays in my pocket

unopened unread unwrinkled

above my heart it awaits

His first...his last

Smiling he lets out
his breath, last
remembering till the end
of his memory then
of her...she his first
she whom he had never kissed
she with whom he never dared to talk
or hold hands and go for a lovely walk
she whom he had only watched from afar..and lived
 only to, to love, so he lived
with love from his heart
with love from his very soul
never letting her know
keeping feeling buried within

yet, in time, it was him
he, who saved her from herself
when she tried to take her life, her own
when she was broken, battered, all alone
it was him who left flowers in her doorsteps
with a note without name
"You are not alone, you can win, soon...get well soon.."
it was him disguising as a nurse, all covered up
singing her lullaby till she had slept sound

And then...it was him...who else but him!
who stood by the door of the church
watching her so happy, so radiant in her white gown
married to another man,  rich charming handsome
which he himself, he, couldn't be, he never was, to begin with..

Still he smiles now, like then
feeling her joy, so attuned to her happiness
her's was his, so it was, and so it is
a beautiful light she, she always radiant
she who made him, whole again
when once she had smiled, by chance
without disgust, without repulsion
despite the crossed eyes his
despite the disfigured jaws
despite the clumsy walk his
despite all nature forgot to bless him with
bitter he couldn't be
from then, again or ever
he changed for the better
for she is became a part of his nature
he couldn't not love
he couldn't not care about
until the very end
as the breath his rattles
in the room down below, the basement
all alone, in the dampness, surrounded in dark
yet, without loneliness a shred
he smiles knowing she is here
here with him
with that smile, that memory of smile
as he lets out his last
smiling laughing in joy
she, his first...
she, his last...

Lonley nose

A part of the dying man
cut off from its rightful place
sits there, there still
in the dark corner by itself

That part, a nose, an aristocratic nose
humbled more that its owner ever will
motionless there amazed from being alive
and sad more, finding none like itself, alike

Then, it knows its time
so, it looks up towards the gray world
where dead hands dead feet
dead whole heads and dead empty eyes
and what not's that made man, complete
lay in chaos, way-laid lay cut off
Alas! not like itself, so alive
kicking and well
picked up by scavengers now and then
tis' a feast like none another,
but to go further, thinks the author
tis'  be not one worthy tale

Now and always...

She is the wild flower

To be looked upon

To be admired

To be praised

not to be plucked

 not to be domesticated

for she has a will of her own

for in the loneliest hills she blooms

she of the natural beauty

she, the rarest of them all

above all the green

above the  trees tall

nearer to the sky so blue so open

 she simply blooms, there aloof

where in that isolation, she is truly alive

seeing which the beholder in such surprise

Longs to make her his

Now and forever

Now and always

 ...

mine...

I shouted your name
but you never heard
but you walked on
and you never cared...

I saw the stars there
on the same spot
where we used to sit
leaning on each other, for comfort...

This garden as i walk
seems more stark
without you here by  my side
the flowers taunt
the hum of bee irritating soul mine...

This feeling seems
not to let go, this loneliness
heavy a burden so heavy
that shadows every steps
that is mine, now mine alone